He's Gone Now

"Think of me, think of me fondly
when we've said goodbye
Remember me once in a while
please promise me you'll try"

It's been two days since he left and a lot of emotions still are going through me now. Happiness for him, but also a kind of sadness. Perhaps the strongest emotions of all right now is how much I'm going to miss him and already do, because there’s no denying that. He is a huge part of my life, and it’s hard to imagine being without him for two years. It wasn’t the only thing I felt, but that was probably the most apparent at this time. The best way I could think of to describe how these two feelings mixed together is that it’s like having an older brother going to college. I'm happy that he’s going because it’s going to be great for him, but also sad because I'll miss him. It’s bittersweet in every way.

In the past four years, David has given so much of himself to the fans. He has shared his amazing gift with us all, and showed us what real music is, what it means to support an artist through it all. He shared himself with us, smiles that lift our spirits, laughs that give us a respite when we’re going through a rough time, and most important, his shining personality that gives us hope. He has given us so many songs, so many concerts – about 150 since 2008 from tours alone – and albums as well. Since his debut album, David has released 3 full albums, 1 EP, an Asian Tour Edition, Glad Christmas Tidings, and a memoir, Chords of Strength, too. Some artists can go for years between albums, so really, we have a lot to be grateful for as fans. We as a fan have a closer relationship to David compared to a lot of other well-known people. He comes out after concerts to see us, even though it’s freezing cold, or the sun blazing down. He genuinely cares for us, and shows it all everytime.

Two years may seem like a long time now, and I’m not going to deny that it feels the same way for me too, but it really isn’t. I’ve had braces for 4 years, and some days they hurt, but the pain goes away, I got through it because I knew it would be worth it in the end, and so will this. David is going to come back, and I’ll get to know him, and fall in love all over again.

One thing that I'll carry on these next two years is David's going to come back. Because he never said goodbye to me, or to the fans. And eventhough it’s going to be hard being without him, just like what My Kind of Perfect said:

“It’s going to be worth it ‘cause that’s what love is.”