#8

Dear You,

A whole year plus 3 months of ups and downs, good and bad - I think we can finally stamp it "PASSED", right? I'm so proud and excited and happy that we could get through all of these together. And I need you to know that whatever/whichever situation that we have had before, I'm so grateful I did it with you.

It's going to be Daylight by Maroon 5, isn't it? A stupid love song that we used to listen to in the car while we drove past the street, will finally become our background soundtrack. Honestly speaking, I'm so afraid of all the things that will come our way. I'm afraid when this goodbye is inevitable, it will finally separate us again. Do you feel the same?

I'm going to miss you SO SO VERYYYYY DAMN MUCH after this. I typed those words in capital and bold just so you know that I will be missing you that much... that much, y'know? Like beyond what I could possibly imagine. I'll be missing you in every single thing that we used to do together. I'll miss our coffee time, our late night snacking while watching those stupid rom-coms, waking up til sunrise talking bout dreams and future together, our jamming session when you taught me how to play the guitar (which I was pretty bad at it) and also the stupid fight and laughs and everything. Every single things with you in it will be totally miss.

I need to tell you that I have never felt anything like this to anyone ever before and I don't really know why. I think it's safe to say that you are the love of my life. You are my Ted's yellow umbrella. You are the Chuck to my Blair. You are everything to me, and I love you - to the moon and back.

Promise me that you'll remember everything clearly. That you are mine and thus after this hard time, we will finally reunited again. Promise me that you'll try and never give up. No matter how hard it is to be with me, I need you to fucking stay.

All stories have an ending, you know. And I do really hope that you're my final line. My closure. Last destination that I could finally call "home".


Xoxo,
The one that almost lost her ability to write


p.s.: I know that we didn't agree on much - in fact we didn't agree almost on anything. But despite all of our differences, I know that we had something in common. We were crazy about each other, right? ;)